have you ever finished your first draft? Finished story that you were writing for weeks, months or, even, years? How did it feel?
I know how it felt for me when I finally finished my story for the first time. I was excited but also nervous. It was the first story I’ve ever finished even though I started writing when I was 9. It took me 19 years to finally finish something. And yes, it might be a long time, but that’s the life. A lot of things have happened in those 19 years; from stories being lost when computer broke down to my overall mental state not being the best for some years. I finished few one shot fan fictions but never the story that was going over multiple chapters and was over 20k words.
It happened on the last day of March this year that I finally finished by first story, my first draft of “Between us”. I started writing it in, I think, 2020 but the idea for it came in the year before. If I remember correctly, it was in 2019 that I got the idea and it was sitting in my head for so long until I finally decided to put it down on the paper. Things changed from the initial idea that I had which was crucial for the story. I wasn’t ready to write about the topic I didn’t know well and knew that couldn’t be well researched as the topic was mostly subjective to every person. So I played with it a bit and was happy with a finished result.
I know that when I finished the book, the first thing that I’ve done was staring at the screen and the two words that I’ve written; “THE END”. It felt so good and it showed me that I am able to write and finish the story that I have in my head. The next step was to tell my friends about finishing the story. Few of them knew how many months I’ve worked on it and how important it was to me to finish it. For me, it was somehow either make it or break it. In the back of my mind, I knew that if I don’t finish this story, I will probably be devastated and won’t go back to writing. Which I didn’t want to happen. So I continued writing and working on the story, no matter how hard it was in that moment.
I did write that first story, mostly as a pantser, without any planing. Now, that I’m writing my second one; “Cupcakes by the sea”, I wrote an outline that I can follow. At least so that I know what is supposed to happen at each part of the story. I don’t want to repeat the dreadful moments where I was staring at my screen because I wanted to write but didn’t know how to continue on or what would the next scene be. Of course, those moments will happen. They always do! But, for me, it is easier if I have at least an outline that I can follow. Sometimes, it is also good to skip to the next scene you want to write even if you don’t know how will you connect those two scenes right now. What is important is to make sure that you are writing. The connection will come sooner or later. One day, you will have that moment where it will click and you will know how to connect those two parts.
Tell me, how did it feel to finish the story for the first time? Did you feel happy or sad? Maybe nervous or even relieved that you are finally done? Did it help you write the next story now that you’ve showed yourself that you are able to write? Let me know, I’d love to hear from you.
Love and light,